Follow your wild, I'll be here.
Before you I was invincible, or so I thought. I would cliff jump off the highest rocks, leave in the middle of the night to embark on new adventures without a plan among other things that should have made me aware of my vulnerability. I always say vulnerability is beautiful, but it was never more beautiful than the moment you came earth side. Not only was I was immediately aware of how precious life is, I realized how precious you are. I knew in that moment there was nothing I wouldn't do to keep you safe. Though I want to keep you safe, I will not cage you in. I will let your wild roam free, while following closely behind in case you need me.
I'll never forget the first time my promise was challenged. Your first swim. It wasn't easy going to the pool. Not because it is a very large task to get the smallest swimmer ready for the pool or because I feared wearing a bathing suit adorned with stretch marks and my new mom bod, it had nothing to do with me. I'm learning very quickly that I will never think of myself first, again. It was every other scary thing about being near water with a two month old baby: the bacteria, the slippery concrete, the reckless splashing children and the possibility of you slipping out of my hands... It's no lie that since becoming your mom I am terrified of absolutely everything. My fears range from grazing the soft spot on your perfect head, to having you taken away in the grocery store. I promise to challenge all fears because I will be brave so you do not need to live in fear...
I promise my girl, I will not let my fears stop you from experiencing life to it's fullest.
Although every absurd and horrifying thought ran through my head with every slow step we took on the wet concrete, I knew I had to do this for you.
From the moment we found out about you, all I ever wished for you was a lifetime of thrill and freedom, if I continue to avoid the outside world how will you ever know that adventure awaits? From the day you were born I knew I would do absolutely anything to keep you safe and I will: I will protect your heart like a Momma bear and her cubs. I will be your guide through the unbeaten path. I will be the moon to light up your darkness. I will be the bridge to help you over hellish waters but, I will never be the bolder standing in your way.
You give me life Little One and I will never stop you from feeling alive.