How We Work on Strengthening Our Marriage ... (even three months in)
Every day Jordan is away I spend it wishing he were home. Wishing he were here to hug me when the days are long and the nights are longer. Wishing he wasn’t missing out on the fun moments with Jaxzen. Simply just wanting him home to do life with… Unfortunately, (and unintentionally) when he’s home I find myself “wishing” for our (mine & Jax’s) ‘normal’ again.
While he’s trying to stack 2 weeks worth of fun into the first few days and be the “fun parent”, without meaning to, I often make him feel like a nuisance or, like he’s disrupting our routine… Needless to say things aren’t always as picture perfect as they seem.
Today, we had intention of going downtown Calgary to explore. I made a snide remark about his driving. He responded with a rude remark and turned around to go home… Ugh.
When we got home it was alarmingly easy for us to blurt out all the things that have been driving us crazy about one another.
Ouch. That sucked.
I spent a better part of the afternoon crying while we talked out the underlying issues of trying to adjust to a “new normal” every couple weeks. As always, I try to run. He pulls me back in knowing full well I’m bluffing. He’s my best friend. I love him more every single day, but sometimes, the ones we love the most are the easiest to get mean with.
Tonight, we wrote letters to each other with all the things we absolutely love about one another, the little things that make us “us”.
A small reminder of a big kind of love, for days like today.